Childhood Dream

Kawan, apakah childhood dream anda?
Bolehkah saya tau?





Saya?









Saya ingin melakukan ini...














Serious.




Oops, ada tambahan accessories.

Mic bersama mic stand di depan subjek utama.




Cool kan?


Ye, saya ingin jadi rock star.



Anda pula bagaimana?

Dulu dan Sekarang

Dulu,
Pagi aku boleh berlengah-lengah.
Siap boleh tido balik lepas iron baju mak aku gi sekolah.
Pukul 6:30 masih lena diulit mimpi.

Sekarang,
Pagi aku dah kena bukak mata.
Kena bersiap untuk ke tempat keje.
Pukul 6:30 aku dah terpacak tunggu bas.
Beratur tunggu giliran naik.

Dulu,
Aku slalu jadi org first datang ofis.
Patutnye pukul 9:30 tapi aku datang lambat 5 minit.
Tapi masih jadi org pertama.
Admin pon dtg lambat dari aku.
Nasib baik aku diamanahkan menjadi pemegang kunci.
Tapi di saat-saat akhir baru korang bagi.

Sekarang,
Pkul 7 dah boleh smpi ofis.
Patutnya boleh punch card lagi awal.
Akibat daripada kena menapak yang mengambil masa lama juga.
Punch card dah ade tiga kali merah.
Dengan muka tebal terpaksa mintak sign dari SV.
Katanya, "Sini memang strict skit,Nurul".
Kalau aku lebih satu kali lagi je, terpaksa la punch card aku berubah warna.

Dulu,
Dalam sempat-sempat berym atau berfacebook, keje tetap banyak.
List keje aku tak penah nye kosong.
Ade je bende yg aku kene buat.
Nak tak nak terpaksa test, buat doc, research sume tu la.
Coding je aku tak sentuh.

Sekarang,
Sangap sebab takde keje. (tapi sebenarnya tetap ade keje).
Dah puas browse Internet ni.
Pagi-pagi dah bukak Utusan Online.
Sebab bosan.
Tapi aku tau tak lama.
Ade keje menanti aku.
"Haaa? VB ngan Crystal Report? Saya cuba ye kak?"

Dulu,
Masa meeting dengan user aku tau la ape yang mereka maksudkan.
Setiap butir aku boleh cepat tangkap.

Sekarang,
Masa meeting, satu hape pon aku tak faham.
Diam membisu.
Cakap bila perlu.
Laporan, statistik, tangkapan data, false accept?
Ape semua tu?
Nasib baik Kak Ina turun sekali.
Kalau tak habis aku user pergunakan sepenuhnya.

Dulu,
Jeans tak jadi masalah.
Setiap Jumaat itulah uniformku.

Sekarang,
Slack pon tak boleh.
Terpaksa bergaya dengan baju kurung je.
Alahai, terpaksa selongkar almari mak aku.
Tiap-tiap minggu balik rotate baju.

Dulu,
Pukul 10 aku dah tido.
Tapi pukul 12 bangun balik.
Buat ape yang patut.
Lepas tu tido.

Sekarang,
Pukul 10 aku dah siap-siap nak tido.
5 minit kemudian dah tido.
Lepas tu, tak bangun-bangun sampai pagi.

Dulu,
Tak kisah aku nak senyum kat orang lain ke tak.
Masing-masing buat hal sendiri.
Masam mencuka pon orang tak perasan.
Satu hari tu boleh dok ngadap keje je.
Jumpe mat saleh dalam lif kene senyum.
Nanti dorg fikir Malaysians are snobbish.
Jumpe org lain lantak ko la.

Sekarang,
Kena rajin senyum.
Nanti orang ingat kite sombong.
Jumpa orang tak kenal pon kene mcm buat-buat kenal.
Tak kisah kerani ke, pegawai ke, indon ke, melayu ke.
*Off topic* Bangla sangat ramai di sini!

Dulu,
Pukul 5 masih ketik-ketik keyboard.
Ade satu setengah jam nak balik.
Naik monorel dgn tenang.
Tak payah pegang ape-ape.
Rilek je sandar kat dinding.
Pot adalah tengah tren.
Driver rilek je handle monorel tu.
Takde istilah brek mengejut.

Sekarang,
Pukul 5 dah bersiap nak balik.
Tunggu bas yang ramai gile orang tu.
Terlepas bas, ha tunggu la ko!
Driver macam org gile selalu brek mengejut.
Terpaksa tukar heels tinggi.
Last-last pakai kasut kempis juga.
(Konon-konon nak bergaya pakai heels)

Dulu,
Pagi-pagi buat neslo kaw kaw.
Lapar je pegi kat pantry.
Munch ape yang patut.
Biskut kering pon jadila.
Malas nak turun, makanan kat pantry jadi juadah.

Sekarang,
Nak pegi pantry pon takut.
Sume makanan kena beli.
Takde yang free-free.
Katanya untuk duit kelab.
Haih, aku pon tak tau.

Dulu,
Lagu-lagu My FM menjadi halwa telinga.
Senyap sunyi ofis jika semua ke tempat client.

Sekarang,
Celoteh-celoteh makcik mengatasi semuanya.
Gelak ketawa mereka.
Wahhh, macam mereka sahaja yang boleh gelak besar.
Senyap sunyi pasti tidak mungkin.

Kawan-kawan, doakan saya boleh menghadapi situasi yang maha baru ini.

Pening Coding

Hangin sungguh satu badan apabila nak letak nuffnang ads asyik error jek.
Adakah aku yg tak tau nak copy and paste kat mana ke atau ads tu yg bengong?!
Penat la macam ni.
Tau la dh lama tak ber'coding'.
Slalu ngadap documentation je.
Adakah aku yang bersalah? (Haha! Tak pasal-pasal)
Tapi mmg bengang sekarang ni!
Takpela bile-bile pon boleh buat. *tapping own shoulder sbb takde sape nak tlg tapkan*.


Nota kaki: Bengang tapi gelak. That's sooooooooo me! *senyum lebar*



Update: Dalam proses utk import blog dulu yg ala-kadar tu. Haha!

The One With Guilt Filled Her System

First thing : countdown

• End of practical training - another 14 days to go

• Venture into the working environment - as soon as i finish the training

• Settle down, waiting for the tarikh keramat 20102010 hehe! - lama lagi. Uwaaaaaaaa!!(the tarikh keramat hanyalah untuk ilustrasi sahaja. Tiada kaitan dgn yg hidup atau yg mati)
  

Second thing : Saya rasa sgt bersalah sekarang.
Saya telah berjanji kpd my bf yg saya akan makan Wendy's together with him bile die turun KL untuk meet up. But, I feel that I cannot resist the godaan of the little-girl-with-pony-tail (referring to Wendy's official logo. Well, at this point I think that Wendy might be that little girl. Hmm..). Then during today's lunch I walked by myself to the nearest Wendy's that i can reach to (Haha! like there are so many of them. The other one i think is in Sunway Pyramid) and bought myself a combo set which cost me around 13 bucks. (It's a shrimp set. I'm allergic to it but yet the picture is so... tantalising)

I tapau-ed the set and walked back to my office. Its not that far as with my walking style (some say kelam-kabut style), it only take 5 to 10 minutes to reach UOA. Luckily today the guard gave me the visitor pass - not the laminated one as always, and can swiftly went through the gate and straightly got on the lift to the 18th floor.

I would give 4/5 for Wendy's. The fries quite salty (Yap, I saw the staff simply 'poured-in' the salt to the fries.) I found online reviews on Wendy's that sharing the same thought as mine. The reviewer also mentioned that he/she prefers the traditional one - those typical McD, Burger King and etc.. Well, we should adapt to changes sometimes, people!

As this entry is about me filling my system with guilt feeling, the story begins:
I told my bf that I had Wendy's for lunch today. Then he went to his rendition of owh, really? tonation (even though we had the online conversation, i know him really well). He started saying things like 'Why I cannot prove the things I've said?'. Translation: Cakap tak serupa bikin.
He said I was the one yg promise that we will have our Wendy's moments together and ended up breaking it. Huhu! I was speechless.

He is right. I should not promise something that I'm not going to keep. Maybe he thought of the moment will be so special that we will have it for the first time - together. But I messed everything up. I never thought that he would take it too seriously.

Then bile sesi perbincangan dijalankan dgn rancaknye (yes, keje kene postpone dulu wpon berlambak2), baru I faham yg my bf ni nak yg terbaik utk i je. He doesnt want me to walk alone as he is not here to take care of me (awww, ure sooooo sweet.) He afraid something bad might happen to me as there is no one accompany me. He said, everything that I want to do, I must tell him. Its not reach to the extend of mengongkong, but i know his intention - to make sure im safe wherever i go.

Since the first major problem of our relationship, I begin to learn and take all the precautious steps to ensure that this relationship will last forever.

I love you and I dont want to lose you.
At the end of the day, he apologized to me.
I said its not your fault, it is surely mine.
And he said, its nobody's fault sayang. Aaaaaahhhh, he is my sunshine!